Make some room and get comfortable, because I’m here for the long haul, folks.
My name is Monroe, and I’m a cool college kid from the frigid northeastern United States. I’m my own personal armchair psychologist, and I invite you to join me on the deep-dives I take into my headspace.
In all seriousness, I won’t bore you with a lengthy introduction piece. I’m just waving hello to let you know I’m here, and I hope you’ll keep an eye out for my future posts to this blog. You’ll likely see some rantings on topics I’ve put too much thought into, and potentially some creative pieces if the mood ever strikes.
Feel free to introduce yourself as well, because the most important piece of this blog is you. ❤
I’ll be in Maine by the end of the day and I’m super excited! My roommate, Nickie G, will be driving and I’m so happy because 1) I hate driving. 2) I hate driving in Atlanta.
Now, everyone please welcome one of my best friends and my roommate, Nickie G! I’d get her to type something right now but she’s in the process of making an introductory YouTube video. She really enjoys doing a lot of make-up tutorials and skin-care routines. I’ll set up a link to our YouTube channel in the About! We would have just made things easier and posted videos on here, but apparently I have to upgrade and I barely had the dough for this blog.
The YouTube channel is just going to be mostly her make-up tutorials with a dash or two of our vlogs. We’re honestly just having fun with this, so I apologize if I’m just blindsiding you with a change.
Anyways, I need to go brush my teeth and finish packing and maybe hurry Nickie G along since we are “supposed” to leave in about 10 minutes.
I don’t know exactly how to start this introduction, so I’ll jump right into it! I go by IffyBiffy for two reasons: 1) A big part of the Username was a nickname my Mimi used to call me 2) and I’m almost always Iffy about something! I’m on here in the hopes of sharing some college tips for anyone who feels they might could prosper from this! 🙂 And I’m totally up for sharing about my problems with anxiety and the constant fight to keep my dark clouds away! Don’t be afraid to reach out to talk about either! 🙂
I know my posts haven’t been very “health and beauty” related (I promise I’m getting to that) but I just want to share my experiences more with you all and get to know some readers along the way.
Do any of you have uncommon pets? Cats, dogs, fish, and hamsters are all pretty common household pets. Right now I just own 2 gerbils that are on not-so-friendly-terms with each other (and hardly me but i’m trying to improve our relationship- I’m also a newer rodent owner so I would appreciate any tips) and I love them so much already. In the future I hope to have a duck or two. Comment and tell me what kind of pet(s) you have whether it be fluffy ferrets, lovable lizards, or attractive axolotls!
So, why is it that I’m only just hearing about the Amazon Rainforest burning? A source of our oxygen and home to many plants and animals is just melting away and it isn’t getting nearly enough media attention! I understand that so much has happened over the course of a few months, in the media, but this is way more important than most of the stuff I’ve read about!
And I mean straight telling yourself (or whoever you’re talking to) a crazy story of what, literally, just happened and you, yourself, were there to experience every detail. I prefer to say that I’m talking to an imaginary audience and I tend to talk fairly frequently and only when I’m by myself.
I’ve realized, now that Nickie G has officially moved in, that I only talk to the audience for a few reasons: 1) namely that I am alone most of the time (never a bad thing for me) and 2) I just need someone to vent to, sometimes. I don’t like talking real people’s ears off because feeling like a burden is on my top 10 list of social experiences to avoid as much as possible.
Yes, I do realize how crazy I’m coming off. I’ve come to accept it at this point.
So, again, I’m asking if anyone else has that same tendency to talk out loud, maybe even to no one in particular?
Hey guys Nickie G. back! So today, Tiff got her new job (woo!) and we went to the gym! We avoided our beloved Taco Bell on the way out and headed straight home after a super tough work out today. That’s a win right? We got out of the house, exercised, and didn’t give in to our cravings. So, to celebrate, I made lemon squares for the first time and this is also my first time eating them! … … We may or may not have ate the whole pan when they were done… but their’s no evidence to prove that so~ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ lol Have a great day/night!
Some of you may recall that I was anxious about not having a job after my last day at the daycare on the 9th, so I did some hardcore Indeed-ing and over the time I had in Maine (the 13th-17th) I got a phone call from a hotel that a friend of mine works at and she pretty much helped me get the interview. I imagine she also helped in determining whether I got the job or not but I obviously can’t prove any of this.
I interviewed yesterday and felt so “in the middle” (ha, dodie song) about the whole experience. I’ve never been good at job interviews but can at least say that I’ve gotten better at them. So, she confirmed my email and told me she’d call me the next day and all morning my heart was pounding. I got a phone call around 8:30am and my body basically vibrating thinking it was the manager. Nope, just some scam call.
Finally, around 2pm I got a text from the manager that I was welcome aboard- she had been unable to call me due to my spotty reception because of where I live. My anxiety has finally dwindled and I can stop waking up to panic attacks every so often! The bills will be paid and I can continue living while I try to figure out the next step which is either A) where Nickie G and I are going to move to or B) What my future major will be.
Dodie has me thinking, today. I’ve had to catch myself in conversation with Monroe because I’m not paying her 100% of my attention. Bad me! Let me explain. In Dodie’s book “Secrets for the Mad…”, she describes how little she feels during her outings with her friends and how it affected how she absorbed the experiences. At one point in time, I could relate to that. Around 2016, I was just kind of going through the motions but, now, I can’t imagine not enjoying a day with my friends! I’m proud of myself for jumping through whatever hoops I had to get through to stand on the ground I’m currently on.
I was also just thinking about how much I used to hate my body and how careful I used to be about what I was going to wear. I blame my mom’s side of the family and their above average cup-sized genes. I think I’ll always remember a specific moment in high school when a group of female classmates asked me how I “got my boobs so big” and when I literally just said it was genetics, they started whispering to each other while flashing me some wicked side eye. I’m guessing from some of the comments they said, they assumed I was doing something to myself and it always made me feel so helpless that I couldn’t do anything to make myself smaller. That is, until I bought a chest binder for a Levi Ackerman cosplay and started wearing it along with my sweaters. Boom, I’d be almost A-cup flat. Granted, I had a uni-boob going on but, at the time, I’d rather that than two C’s. A handful of years later and now I’ve accepted how I look and own more form-fitting clothes. I don’t even know where the chest binder is, to be honest. Monroe even speculated that I might be in D-cup territory and the only reason I can find to hate that is that I enjoy running but it can be painful without the right support. So, I don’t completely hate myself at this point. That’s a goal kids these days shoot for, right?
On the topic of changing, I’m also proud of the “I don’t give a fuck” mentality growing deep inside me. Don’t be fooled, I still have certain people whose opinions I value. I’m slowly coming around to being able to wear whatever I want outside and be able ignore the stares of people who assume I will shamefully go change. But, you know what happens when you assume? You make an ass out of you and me. An ex told me that once, ha ha! The current problem I’m running into is that when I really get into the “IDGAF” vibe, I can mentally turn into a bitch and I try to avoid that as much as possible. An example would be me, 2 hours ago, angrily searching for a cheap journal and pens at the bookstore so I could write all these feelings down and type them up later (which im doing now). I was just feeling like a badass at the time because I was wearing a bit of a risque outfit and I was trying to push the IDGAF mood as hard as I could. I ended up pushing it too far and just became bitchy thinking I was “so cool” for not caring so I ran around the bookstore trying to find a dang journal. It was all just a ego trip and I just need to stop ha ha!
I like to look back at all the changing I’ve done. It all makes me proud that I’ve come so far.
Hey guys, I’m Nickie G.! Just wanna give you guys a heads up, I’ll be covering some health and beauty facts, looks, and routines as we continue to move one- maybe more if there are any requests or questions about products.
P.S. I’ve been reading some pretty good books lately. (P.P.S. Does anyone else happen to enjoy the scent of old books?)
If any of you are like me and need something delicious to get you jumping out of bed- or at least hitting snooze only a few times- then a good breakfast might help you. I tend to mix up my breakfasts a few times a month because I’m still trying to find the cheapest and best breakfast that’ll still get me to want it by the time I wake up in the AM. You could always try things like coffee, juice, milk, breakfast shakes, etc for drinks and maybe some waffles, pancakes, grits, biscuits, or breakfast bars as something that might be quick if you’re under a time crunch like I am. It’s really up to you and I highly suggest it to help get you out of bed and it’s all healthy and stuff.
I know there are some people out there that don’t like breakfast or just don’t eat it for one reason or another but if you’re struggling to get out of bed, it can be a great pace-changer.
If anyone has any other motivators that help them get out of bed, please feel free to share! If it works and I don’t have to buy breakfast any more than that’ll be a great penny-pinching tool for me, ha ha!