I don’t even mean just $$$! I’m exhausted and I haven’t even left my computer screen! My wallet feels empty and I haven’t even spent anything! I’m already feeling that anxious pressure of “Will I be able to make rent” and I haven’t even moved in and started another job! I’ve already put my two weeks in at my current place of work and it’s hard finding another job when you don’t even know where you’re going to move next. We( one of my best friends and I) have a general idea but there’s a possibility we could move to another city and I’m already going to be using some gas to get to school, which is currently about two cities away. I could work somewhere around there but it’s already such a drive. I’d just be putting myself in the position I was in during my time at the community college. I’d be waking up extra early to drive over half an hour, one way, just to get to my classes and if I don’t have them, then just to where I work. It would just be easier to find a job that’s close to where I live so on the days I’m not going to school, I’m not using a ton of gas, right?
The thing is, is I’ve worked in fast food for most of my life- minus these last 8 months- and I have zero want to get back into that! I don’t want to get into sales because I’ve heard the horror stories and know that it can be quite similar to serving which was hell on my anxiety. These last 8 months have been in childcare which has been a blast and I keep getting attached to my babies- as one does- so I’m extremely sad to be leaving but the reason is not only for the move but also it’s starting to look a little shady. I won’t go into detail because that’s just not what I want to talk about right now but I’m trying to figure out if I want to go this route for my next job, for wherever we move! I’ll figure it out eventually, right?
Right now I just need to focus on figuring out where we are going to live! Although I’ve got a looming plane ride to Maine coming up in about 3 weeks. I’ll try and worry about that later, though. This is kind of more important.