Time traveling pt.2 Can't let go of the past

I’ve explored the idea of going back in time before. The last time I did it, I had the mindset of destroying my longest relationship I’ve ever had, which was from the third grade, and jumping to my current one. This go around, I’ve decided to destroy my most heart-breaking relationship in favor of myContinue reading “Time traveling pt.2 Can't let go of the past”

Traveling back in time pt. 1

What if you could travel back in time? Last night I stumbled upon this subject after wondering who my longest relationship was. In case you’re wondering, it was a guy named C.J. and we were in the third grade. Our relationship lasted the extent of the school year and died on the first day ofContinue reading “Traveling back in time pt. 1”

Finally starting to feel up

I know I usually post a lot when I’m down but I was just too down last week. My birthday was just me choosing to be alone so I could nurse my mental wounds with Seagrams and Marlboros. I did get some money from my parents which turned into groceries. I finally felt like I’dContinue reading “Finally starting to feel up”

Communication may be Key, but I preferred to stay locked

I’ve got more things on my mind than my birthday that’s coming up. I know I’m not going to be in the mood for people by then because I’m not in the mood for people now. That’s my logic, anyways. It’s not very soundproof or however you say it, but that’s what I’ve come toContinue reading “Communication may be Key, but I preferred to stay locked”

I know what I wanna write about but I don’t wanna write it

I’ve been thinking about how much I enjoy spending time by myself. And I don’t even mean relationship wise. I’ve always liked the idea of building up a chunk of change and driving off to some rando destination and setting up shop wherever I can. I’ve even romanticised living in my car which is kindaContinue reading “I know what I wanna write about but I don’t wanna write it”

Stepping out of my comfort zone ~Rated M for Mature

I’ve mentioned in a few of my posts that I have been dating someone and that I’ve had a hard time really opening up to him. It has, mainly, been because of my past experiences. I’ve been trying to push past them because I can’t hide behind them forever. Dodie would never accept that ofContinue reading “Stepping out of my comfort zone ~Rated M for Mature”

Life without internet is fine… Till I have to look something up

It’s been a little while without internet! It feels like it has been at least a month! I’m sitting in a bookstore, stealing some of their wifi just so I can post this. I made sure to purchase a hot cocoa and a few Christmas presents that way I don’t feel so bad. I stillContinue reading “Life without internet is fine… Till I have to look something up”

Being in this relationship can be confusing

There are so many times when I think about the relationship I’m in being a bit much for me. I feel expected to want to be around my boyfriend all the time and any time we are alone, I become anxious because I know he’s thinking about sex. We’ve done it a couple times butContinue reading “Being in this relationship can be confusing”