3-2-20

I’ve always known that I have pretty bad anxiety over important events, work, breaking any kind of code, any kind of closeness, money, and time. I’m especially anxious when it comes to time. That’s why, I would love the ability to control time. It seems like a wonderful way to control all of the thingsContinue reading “3-2-20”

Finally starting to feel up

I know I usually post a lot when I’m down but I was just too down last week. My birthday was just me choosing to be alone so I could nurse my mental wounds with Seagrams and Marlboros. I did get some money from my parents which turned into groceries. I finally felt like I’dContinue reading “Finally starting to feel up”

Communication may be Key, but I preferred to stay locked

I’ve got more things on my mind than my birthday that’s coming up. I know I’m not going to be in the mood for people by then because I’m not in the mood for people now. That’s my logic, anyways. It’s not very soundproof or however you say it, but that’s what I’ve come toContinue reading “Communication may be Key, but I preferred to stay locked”

Stepping out of my comfort zone ~Rated M for Mature

I’ve mentioned in a few of my posts that I have been dating someone and that I’ve had a hard time really opening up to him. It has, mainly, been because of my past experiences. I’ve been trying to push past them because I can’t hide behind them forever. Dodie would never accept that ofContinue reading “Stepping out of my comfort zone ~Rated M for Mature”

Being in this relationship can be confusing

There are so many times when I think about the relationship I’m in being a bit much for me. I feel expected to want to be around my boyfriend all the time and any time we are alone, I become anxious because I know he’s thinking about sex. We’ve done it a couple times butContinue reading “Being in this relationship can be confusing”

There are good people, and then there’s me.

For starters, I’m not saying I’m a bad person, I’m just not that good either. So, two things have caused me to really reflect on my behavior and morals. The first was this TV show I’m watching called The Good Place on Netflix, although now that I’m on season 2 I’m not so worried. TheContinue reading “There are good people, and then there’s me.”

A moment of clarity

How long will this last? Who knows. All I know is that I’m taking advantage of it because, as per my last post, I’m tired and I’m tired of making posts with such negative (although true- I cannot deny myself of my emotions) content. Earlier today, as I was clicking through link after link ofContinue reading “A moment of clarity”