I apologize for the silence, so I’m gonna break it.

For some reason, this shitty thought floated through my head some hours ago. I was laying on my boyfriend’s lap while we watched Castlevania and a thought just… drifted into my head. I was feeling weary and my brain just says, “This would be a good time in your life if you died.” A vacant […]

I’m coming back.

I’ve mentally been who knows where and the feeling of normalcy and stability are returning. I apologize about the few days I’ve been away. Things have been a bit hectic because my schedule keeps doing almost-180s. I’m training for a different position at work and the schedule is 4:30am-12pm whereas my original schedule was 8:30am-2:30pm-ish. […]

I’m so early!

I’m literally so early to my flight that the flight before mine is about to leave. I panicked thinking my flight was on another concourse but then realized: 1) my flight doesn’t board for another hour 2) the flight posted on the board is expected to leave soon. I’m dumb Although I’ll give myself some […]

Feeling much better and am packing for Maine!

I ended up with a 103 fever last night that drifted down to 101 this morning. It took some time, medicine, and a LOT of short naps but I’m back to my normal self! (Minus slight congestion) I spent some of my morning and night packing and I’ve decided I won’t take too much with […]

Life Update!

I have officially decided not to attend university this semester after some time of anxiety induced thinking! I wanted to go into childhood education but I am not sure I am fit for this degree. Instead, I think I’d rather be in something a little more technical and creative, maybe media or journalism. I have […]

Apartment hunting takes so much out of you!

I don’t even mean just $$$! I’m exhausted and I haven’t even left my computer screen! My wallet feels empty and I haven’t even spent anything! I’m already feeling that anxious pressure of “Will I be able to make rent” and I haven’t even moved in and started another job! I’ve already put my two […]